I'm a chicken...

... yes I truly am a chicken. I cancelled my date yesterday and postponed it to next wednesday. I know what you're thinking... 'What an idiot'... I probably am. It's just that I was so nervous that I felt like I wouldn't handle it. I chatted with him during the afternoon and he was okae with that, which is cool. So we planned another date for next week, and I had to promise not to postpone it this time... I wonder which excuse I'm going to find next. No wait, I promised... damn, no excuse then... I have to go! Oh dear, I'm so nervous. That's the fact of him having a 6 month old baby that freaks me out. I mean... no, I don't mean anything... I'm just not sure I'm ready for THAT.

I've had a chat with Big Sister and she just said... 'If you don't give it a go you'll never know. Besides, you've always loved babies, and you're really good... I know, you've looked after my kids long enough for me to realize it." ... Now, that's the nicest thing someone could tell me. I'll probably give him a chance to conquer my heart...